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doing any thing, sitting then and doing nothing; was not attending to my duty or anything else. I made no reply at all. I went down and looked onto the coffin, and after that I went to Dr. Harlow. Said I, "have I done my duty here?" He says, "Yes. What is the matter now?" Then I went on and told him how it was. He says. "Well, perhaps Lakin isn't feeling well." And that is the way it has been. "He is not feeling well Dr." or "He is overworked", some excuses that he cannot be gentlemanly, kind and cautious with the other officers. Since I have been in that institution I have never known any officer or supervisor, though Hamlin who was supervisor for a little while stated to me that he had once, though I did not know any thing about it, and I am sorry it is so he can not be here- I say I have never known one of them to complain about these things. They would not do it. It is not a pleasant thing. You do not receive the congratulations of the superintendent and the steward and treasurer when you look out for those little things that dont look well for the hospital. The Dr. told me at another time that